Five years ago today, Honeybun exited my body and forever changed my world when she made me a mommy. I cannot believe how fast time has gone and how big she has gotten. Having Doodle now just reminds me of how much she really has grown and changed.
Every mommy has a special place in her heart for her first child. I remember the first moments with Honeybun . She didn’t cry after she was born. She laid in my arms, perfectly pink, breathing fine and just took it all in. She was the calmest baby from that very first moment. And then she pooped on my arm. “So nice to meet you too, little one.”
I remember how alert she was from that very first moment and how we used to talk about how she just “gets” the world. When she was about 6 weeks old, we drove across Florida to introduce her to hubby’s Grammy. On that long, nighttime car ride I told hubby I was already worried about when she went to school. It was the first time I brought up home school because I could already tell she was an incredibly bright child and I was already worried about her being bored and getting forgotten in a traditional classroom.
She was always very advanced in her motor skills. She sat up unassisted at 4 ½ months, crawled at 7 and walked at 9 ½ months. But she was not a talker. She was nearly 14 months before she said her first word, “Mom-mom” and that was only after I refused to take her out of her crib one day until she said it.
She has a great sense of humor and has always thought she was so funny, laughing at her own jokes and trying really hard to make those around her smile. Even now she loves making others happy and doesn’t handle it well when people are upset at her. She has become a very compassionate child.
Honeybun and I have not always gotten along. She is very much like me and I often don’t have patience for her especially when I feel she is being overly ridiculous about things. I often have to remind myself that she is only a child and that even though she is very mature and bright, it is normal for her to act her age sometimes.
But no matter what kind of day we are having, one thing is always constant: I love her with my entire being. I would do anything for her and it breaks my heart any time I see her hurting. She, after all, is my first baby and that is how I will always view her.
